thesebutterflybones
Angel. 19.

Her namewas Ana and I was once entangled in her web of lies. However, I am so lucky to be alive now, by the grace of God, and I feel more free than I ever have before. But there is hope, for all of you, and there is a beauty in this crazy thing we call life.

I am just a girl who is in love with beautiful photography, obsessed with staying dance and just happens have recovered from an eating disorder. It took a long time, it was a journey but God has brought me into this glorious light.

I hope that my journey can be an example of hope and light to all of you who stumble across this blog and feel the way I used to feel. You can get out of the entangled web of lies that she weaves. You can get better, you will get better. Please, know that there is light to the end of the tunnel.

God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. - 1 John 1:5

Yes, some people say to me you're too skinny, but never a skinny person says that to me, only people who could lose a few pounds say that. – Karl Lagerfeld

Welcome to my journey.
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15:34

I push away the people I care about because it is the only way I know how to deal. If I like someone, and they’re my friend, I push them away; not out of anger but out of sadness I suppose. Because, I know deep down they would never feel the same way. So I close up my windows and shut my doors.

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06:47

I don’t get waves of missing you anymore, they’re just more like tsunami tides.

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20:05

I hate falling for a guy and having feelings because I become wrapped up and riddled in insecurities. 

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13:16

I like you. I like you. I like you.

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06:13

Falling for him is a dangerous game for me to be playing.

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18:37

This the first birthday I have been excited for in two years…

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19:48

I am proud of the person I am today. For so long I was walking through a dark wilderness, the valley of the shadow of death. I hated myself. I wanted to dig up the dirt and place myself underneath it. But now I have inexplicable joy. It burns my soul and I wake up smiling  I am content now. I am at peace now. I know what it truly means to be beautiful. It has nothing to do with your weight or how you look nor to do with what the mirror tells you (I barely look in it now). I know I am beautiful because I am found in God’s grace and love. I am His workmanship. He is the potter and I am the clay. He is daily creating me into a fine piece of art. Each day I grow and mature. The person, woman, in the mirror today looks different. She smiles more, she looks pretty and she has an inner peace. 

I am not ashamed of my story. I have traveled a long road. Neither do I condemn my actions. We all go through our own hell’s. Nobody is to judge our circumstance. Rather we need to work towards loving one another and helping each other when we see a need.

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17:40

Is anyone else obsessed with Pretty Little Liars like me?

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19:48

I just cannot stand negative people. They suck the life out of you.

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17:27

I am listening to Florence & the Machine for the first time in 6 months. I can’t believe how far I have come in my journey. Now that I am heading into winter and writing my book I just can’t help but think back to how depressed, lonely and isolated I was a year ago. It’s crazy how God can change so much. I just thank Jesus each day that I am still alive and healthy. 

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